This is the space that I simply must do.  As Ray Bradbury said "Don't think.  Thinking is the enemy of creativity.  It's self-conscious, and anything self-conscious is lousy.  You can't try to do things.  You simply must do things."

I can't tell you how many minutes a day I spend thinking.  Thinking about the courage it took to quit my job at a church, where there was an outlet for my passion of working with youth.  Thinking about that Godiva cookies and cream bar in the Barnes and Noble check out line.  Thinking about my one year old marriage and how I could possibly be this in love with one person.  Thinking about God, Jesus and Christ.  Thinking about the weight of my body.  Thinking about all this energy and creativity that I have wasted day after day looking at a computer screen or the gym television....

It is time to stop thinking and start doing things, at least making a connection to the world around me and my consciousness.  This is my journey to make every day a positive one.  To create some inspiring space on this world wide web of connection and step off my dock of negativity.

I know I do not stand alone when I feel life is definitely full of negativity, either we have tendencies to wake up on the wrong side of the bed or we receive messages in various ways that tell us we are not enough to care.  Then messages that tell us exactly what is enough to make you somebody.

Negativity is defined as indicating opposition or resistance, lacking positive or constructive features and/or moving or turning away from a stimulus, such as light. (www.thefreedictionary.com)

I don't want to resist life in all it's exciting opportunity, or lack positive features that people can use for the good and most importantly I don't want to turn away from everything coming to me (bad or good), especially the light.  I truly believe that life is about creating yourself, not finding yourself.